Tuesday, August 22, 2006

So much to do- so little time

I'm 48 hours from flying to Greece for a solid two weeks with my Mom. A trip I hope goes amazing vs leading to matricide. Everything seems to be speeding up which is bad when life was already zooming by way to fast. Suddenly I've been with Peter 3 months, I've had 100 more pointless interviews, and the leaves on the trees are turning brown. Worst of all I'm rapidly plummiting toward 25 and still don't know what I want to do with my life! How totally un kawaii. I'm hoping this trip may give me a kind of spiritual cleansing- some kind of direction in my life. gtg- talk soon

Sunday, August 06, 2006

I wanna go fast

Ricky Bobby touched me in a way none of there heavy endorsment products ever imagined. Maybe it was the great editing, sound design, direction and writing- or maybe it was because it spoke to me during a very dark time. Trying to figure out what to do with my life has been a challenge that has eaten my self esteem and turned me pretty darn un-kawaii. I can relate to Ricky's desire to please everyone and be #1; not to mention how he looses his confidence and ends up delivering pizzas. But enevitably Ricky learns he just wants to be happy and success finds him yet again. Moral: do what you love because you love it and happiness will follow. And so in an effort to "go fast" I'm trying to find my confidence again. To stop seeing closed doors. If I've learned anything it's that you make your own luck, so maybe I can do that. And of course, only be able to count to #1.